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when i met you there underneath the powerlines, i’d start to cry
to wash you away
cause i’m a goddamn fool and i knew you’d ruin my life
in the fever dream
of a summer haze
i was 19
you were 21
my mama said she loved you
she wasn’t the only one
you lost yours back
when you were 15
you forgot softness
and what the word means
but i’ve come to know you like you forgot
you knew yourself
gave you my virginity under the overpass
static tearing up your daddy’s stereo
you were pouring sweat and i was bleeding out on your seats
but we just laughed to death and held each other close
valleys of powerlines
we drive by day and night
stretching for miles away from here
we talk of runnin’
straight shot just gunnin’
until we’re out there in the clear
it’s been hard here for you
but i know, i’m trying too
all alone in this town
in this alabama wild
nothing stops if not for you
but i’ll always love you and you know i will
we spent september on the backroads
shotgunnin’ warm bud lights down a sinner’s rabbit hole
by the fire, taking off my dirty blouse
i let your hands do things that no one needs to know
and i love you like you won’t ever know cause you get too caught up in what they tell you to
i’ll never forget the night or the paper in his hand when you found your daddy there swinging from the ceiling fan
by that belt you fucking hated
that left the marks i don’t ask about
all i know is i’ve never seen you hurt as bad as you do right now
now you crush up pills to forget
and you crush up more to sleep
you crushed yourself into a ghost
that i can’t reach when you’re inside me
and i take each blow you give me
and i keep them as a gift
at least you can still bear to touch me
and when you throw you never miss
it’s been hard here for you
but i know, i’m trying too
all alone in this town
in this alabama wild
nothing stops if not for you
but i’ll always love you and you know i will
you’d been gone for days when i
heard the news that you’d been found
shotgun in hand in your daddy’s field
sprayed out all over the ground one last time
i wish we’d have left while we still could
but i’ll do what i promised you i would
and let those powerlines take me somewhere
it’s been hard here for you
but i know, i’m trying too
all alone in this town
in this alabama wild
nothing stops if not for you
but i’ll always love you and you know i will
when i met you there underneath the powerlines, i’d start to cry
and then i’d let you in
cause i’m a goddamn fool and i let you ruin my life
but if i had the chance
i’d do it all again
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Verona (Demo)
04:38
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the party’s over and
you tell everybody to leave
you leave the windows open
let the summer wind wash over me
i won’t let anyone touch me
don’t they know i belong to my baby
stay inside, let you get rough with me
you like it best when i’m your darling
when you’re in my body
feel you deep inside me every night
i’m coming up empty
tryna find the words to describe you right
here in my verona
here in my verona
you used to tell me praying’s useless, it’s a waste of time
now you’ll tell me you were joking but you’re goddamn right
but when you’re reaching up to heaven through these gates of mine
i see jesus in your eyes
it’s getting tough these days to stay awake
but i never sleep when i’m with my baby
i knew that it was true when you called me home
the only love i’ve ever known
here in my verona
here in my verona
here in my verona
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Doe Hunting (Demo)
03:28
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Highway Horses
03:41
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i love the way
you drive
so recklessly
like you’re not afraid to die
you say you love
the way
i have to hang my head
out the window
dreaming about how
i wish i could fly
highway horses
billboard crosses
staring at them from
the motel parking lot
with you
i love the way
you dive
right into me
like you’re not afraid to cry
you say you love
the way
i have to fall asleep next to you with my eyes open
so you’re the last thing i see each night
highway horses
billboard crosses
staring at them from
the motel parking lot
with you
highway horses
backroad corpses
nowhere to go
but at least i'm going with you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i
i love you
i love you
i love you
i
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Chapel Hill
04:15
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the world outside is sick
i dug both our graves until i bled
from my fingertips
they throttle his neck
i cradle his head
my love, you can’t protect us
my love, you can’t be helped
i tried to hold them off you
but their hunger beat me out
they’ll come in through the windows
they’ll take my love down
and i will always love you
but my love is not enough
enough to save you
my baby won’t last the night
they won’t stop until he’s been nailed and crucified
the ringing of the chapel bell echoes down the hill
he won’t be in pain for much longer but i know i will
and i will always love you
but my love has never been enough
enough to save you
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Death Rattle
04:12
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love isn’t painless and love isn’t free, and love’s never come easy to me
cause you dig deeper when i pull farther, you’ve never been afraid of what people say or see
you always tell me to bury you by your mother, so for the first time, you can feel close to her
you carve your prayers between my legs in hopes that you’ll feel better but you only feel worse
our days are numbered, and you can only drive so fast
and we can hide under the floorboards, but your body was never built to last
i cry every time i ask you
do you even wanna stay here with me
am i just a casualty to you
do you even know what that means
our days are numbered, and you can only drive so fast
and we can run until we’re out of sight, but your body was never built to last
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Vultures
04:05
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prepare to meet thy god
for he regrets giving you up
you have evaded her thus far, for 20 long years
but she has put the poison in your cup
your mother cries for you
she lies awake at night in tears
your father left a week right after you did
he still doesn’t know why you disappeared
i ran away into the woods to find you
and in the mouths of vultures i found where you had been
i ran into the woods to find a man who never loved me
and i came out a woman born again
i found you in the mouth of vultures
and i found you in the grip of cain
(i found you in the grip of vultures
and i found you in the mouth of cain)
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Starvation
04:12
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six weeks since we last ate
six weeks we’ve been taught
six weeks the phone’s been ringing
and now the sheriff’s at the door
at two weeks my insides screamed
i was coughing up blood by three
by four my father couldn’t take it
and hung himself in the yard from the oak tree
my mother said be patient
it’s what god said to her
get down on your knees and pray with me
you won’t get blessings you don’t deserve
see how long
see how far
a little will go
jesus christ, he loves me
this i know
the bedsheets stained with my sister’s waste
my brother’s eyes crusted shut
the dogs stopped crying weeks ago
with my hands digging deep inside their guts
i ache all over
i can’t get clean
my bones start to bend inside of me
but god forbid i question what he asks me to do
i just hope he gets here soon
see how long
see how far
a little will go
jesus christ, he loves me
this i know
i hold my mother she won’t hold me back
they cut down my father and his broken neck
they found the baby in a dirty cloth upstairs
while my brother and my sister just rot
one takes me in his arms and then he runs outside
but they are too late now, i’m already in the light
i’m the only one jesus comes to take
as he takes my hand and i waste away
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12. |
Room 209
03:20
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i know you better now than i ever have before
I know you better now that our clothes are on the floor
and i had started shaking when you walked in through the door
but i’m not scared anymore, i’m not scared anymore
and i’ve never felt more alone with your arms around my shoulders
but i know if you left i’d cry myself to sleep praying that you’d hold me closer
but i see your face in the lamplight
and suddenly i don’t wanna die, i don’t wanna die
and i don’t need to be happy anymore
i just need to know that i’m yours
so will you tell me that i’m yours
you sleep so deeply cause you hope you won’t wake up
but i tread so lightly cause i’m scared you’ll self destruct
and i know that we’d go up in flames but i can’t help myself
cause i’d die if i knew you found safety in the arms of someone else
and i don’t need to be happy anymore
i just need to know that i’m yours
will you tell me i’m yours
that i’m yours
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